On the one hand, there is some truth to that. When you are in that place of self loathing,
you do not feel like you deserve to be loved, or to be improved. You feel like you are not worth taking up a
space in that yoga class. You feel like
the people at the gym will openly harass you for being inadequate. You feel like that attractive person could
not possibly like you, and worse that if you do talk to them they will sneer,
and say vicious and vile things (about you) to you. So you reject yourself in advance for these
external influences. Because at least
you will be polite about your rejection…
If you are anything like me, you are not at all polite about
that rejection. The things I say to
myself behind the closed doors of my mind are some of the most reprehensible
words that could ever be said from one human to another. Luckily though, most of us reserve that level
of vitriol for our own personal destruction.
We would never dream of saying those things to another person. Even if the most hideous troglodyte hits on
me at the bar, the worst I say, is ‘Thank you, but I’m not interested.”
Now… A lot of this might look like I am just pointing out weight
or physical fitness as factors of beauty that I am discussing. That is not the case. When we look at another person we assess
their everything. We assess how they put
their outfit together, how they applied (or didn’t) their makeup, how they
entered the venue, and how they move through it, and interact with it. Granted, much of this is body language
driven, as opposed to conscious observation.
Regardless, someone can be sublimely physically attractive, and then you
see they are a total douche to the waiter…
Alternately, AJ or PJ can lightly touch your arm to grab your attention
and send shivers down your spine.
What is the difference between cute and pretty?
What is the difference between pretty and sexy?
What is the difference between sexy and sultry?
The answer to all of these is style and demeanor. Luckily we control both of these things, as
they pertain to our lives. We choose
what we are putting on our body, and how we are presenting it to the world. I’m not saying you should be wearing designer
labels, and expensive clothing, or that you should always be dressed to the
nines… I’m saying… if you have an
article of clothing that makes you feel bad about yourself… Throw it the fuck
away… If you want to feel bad about yourself, you do not need an uppity dishrag
helping you to do so. Have your hair
done the way you want it done. Wear
clothing that suits your shape, and your body. Get that piercing or tattoo, you are afraid
people will judge you for. Let me say…
you are judging yourself for it way more than anyone else will. You will find that when you are truly happy
in your own skin/look, that you will radiate a confidence that is beyond
reproach. People will not question your
choices, because they will fit the whole package. What they will see is you. Some may not like it. That is okay.
There are WAY too many people on this earth to be concerned with those
opinions.
This leads me to my last little bit of ramble. A very wise person once told me that if you
make eye contact with someone twice, in a short period of time, there is a
meaningful interaction to be had there.
Three times… there is a connection. So I challenge you…
If you find someone attractive… talk to them. Say hello.
It sounds so simple… Because it is!
